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Mar. 5th, 2014 12:45 amI can't sleep so I will just type my thoughts here. Maybe my head is too full of worries thus the headache.
- I seriously want to go to Canada! I want to go where I maybe can belong and prosper. I never felt like I belonged here in my country...
- Felt a bit depressed today thinking about my future and what if I never get to go to Canada?
- I feel sad every time I think about my cats. I feel that I am failing as a master. And I miss them so.
- I'm scared to make wrong decisions. I know they are a part of living, learning and growing but ugh, at my age? I just feel that every mistake I make is critical because...
- I feel time is running out for me.
- I feel old.
- I'm struggling with losing weight. I feel helpless...
- Today was supposed to be the 2nd day of my juice-only diet but I am failing miserably.
- I seriously don't want to eat anymore.
- I think I need another job...
- I should maybe study again....
- But everything I have to do requires money!!!
- I managed to do my workouts. That's one thing that I'm proud of. I didn't finish the whole kick-boxing routine but its my first time so I am okay with that. I just have to do it again and again until I get strong!
- I love my gay ships so much that I don't feel like I can have a proper relationship anymore unless I was a gay man. Being gay and having sex is more fun that hetero sex imho.
This is what happens when you watch too much gay porn.
