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Feb. 17th, 2013 09:45 amYesterday I woke up and for some reason I though of Björk. Her song "Hunted" echoing in the deep recesses of my mind like a past memory knocking on my skull waiting to be let out. So yesterday I spent the whole day googling about her and I downloaded her songs. Not all of it, I am afraid, but I started with a compilation of fifteen of her "greatest hits". I dunno if those really are the greatest as I suspect she has tons of really good songs (I bet those are based on chart ratings). I have yet to listen to this collection. "Its Oh So Quiet", which is one of my favorite videos and songs of hers, is not included in the collection so I looked it up on YouTube. Its still as cute as I remembered it and very entertaining. She is such a graceful dancer! I think she will do well in a very musical. I also discovered "Unison" on YouTube - watched a very moving live performance she had at the Royal Opera House in London. I instantly liked it! I couldn't get the song out of my head. It was haunting and enchanting. I agree with one commenter that this song is about individuality - and that I can really relate to. The lyrics "I never thought I would compromise", is what first struck me about this song. I guess for people like me who value individuality and self-expression above all, compromising, is such a big and daunting thing to do. I have had issues with compromising all my life. Always questioning myself whenever I do it and if I am committing a crime against my own beliefs for doing so. But as the chorus goes "Lets unite... tonight, we shouldn't fight, embrace you tight." It shows acceptance and maturity and realization that individuality (and stubborness) can also be compromised perhaps for more important things such as love.
Today, I woke up thinking of my friend Beng and realizing that she is indeed a person full of kindness. I know she is having an affair and that she can be a nagging wife and I judged her secretly for it. But considering how lame her husband was (is), I think marriage has just pushed her to her limits. And what is a person to do when she is deprived of true love all her life? Of course she would try to look for love elsewhere and there is no deliberate malicious intent in it - she is only seeking what she rightfully deserves, isn't she not? And what right do I have to belittle her for it when I can't even begin to imagine what it must feel like to not feel loved. Beng never spoke ill of her mother, husband or her lover. She is a good person, if only one will overlook her weakness. She is a good daughter, mother and a very good friend. I also just realized - for she mentioned it the other night when we were hanging out, that the reason she wants to be a mother is because she was a frustrated daughter. He mother was cruel to her and she wanted to be anything but. Maybe she wants to prove to the world that good mothers exist and that she is but a unfortunate victim of a selfish and stupid mother.
Today, I woke up thinking of my friend Beng and realizing that she is indeed a person full of kindness. I know she is having an affair and that she can be a nagging wife and I judged her secretly for it. But considering how lame her husband was (is), I think marriage has just pushed her to her limits. And what is a person to do when she is deprived of true love all her life? Of course she would try to look for love elsewhere and there is no deliberate malicious intent in it - she is only seeking what she rightfully deserves, isn't she not? And what right do I have to belittle her for it when I can't even begin to imagine what it must feel like to not feel loved. Beng never spoke ill of her mother, husband or her lover. She is a good person, if only one will overlook her weakness. She is a good daughter, mother and a very good friend. I also just realized - for she mentioned it the other night when we were hanging out, that the reason she wants to be a mother is because she was a frustrated daughter. He mother was cruel to her and she wanted to be anything but. Maybe she wants to prove to the world that good mothers exist and that she is but a unfortunate victim of a selfish and stupid mother.
