I miss home...

[lalahela]

It seems that my default thoughts are of Gary and ugly thoughts of him. My brain is still rationalizing the loss. Today, it blamed myself. I remember the times I got so mad and yelled at him and my actions seemed to rattle him. He didn't know how to handle an upset woman. And he didn't take responsibility for it. He was all about having his way and none of the obligations. I guess he never grew up in that sense. 

When you're away from the people you love there's a part of you that can never feel whole.